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wow its been years...practicallly.
So much has happened it is impossible for me to even pretend that i'm going to type it all. I've been though some interesting things these past months. My cousin started college and succeded in making me realize that life as I know it is coming to an end...college is coming and I need to decided where I want to live the next for years of my life...a decision that i'm petrefied to make. Senior has started with something new...I met a guy that for a while seemed and did make me happy (a feeling I don't often expirience) he was and is an awesome guy....but my dumbass brain got in the way like it enjoys doing. I thought about college, friends, and family and everything I knew and know i'm going to have to leave behind...I knew that getting close to him would add one more thing to the list that I most defenitly would not want to leave...so I ended it...a decision that I do not regret but one that will haunt me. I feel what I did was right for me and him but I hate having to hurt someone that made me happy at one point...but whats done is done and it was for the best...life goes on and I have to learn to too.
Aside from the usual sap story...because well what else is livejournal for?...I continue hanging out with the jAsper people...that i've come to love. lol. Taking picture has over taken my life and what better subject to take them of but of the people that make me laugh and are there for me every weekend. I still love my best friend Natalie to death and i've realized that life away from her is going to be impossible...while we have our fights and want to cut eachother up at that time of the month, I really don't know what I would do without her. Her random thoughts and our hyper moments and just all of our stupidities are what make my life normal...as odd as that sounds. She is all i've known for 8 years now...and having to leave that behind is going to be really hard. I guess you have to do what you have to do...no matter how much it hurts and how hard you KNOW its going to be.
As for finding the right guy right now...there has been nothing...sure a few prospects here and there but nothing that I can think of sticking...but at the same time I go back to my ex and I realize that what I did was right and that I don't want to do that to anyone else.
wow...I had forgotten just how emo livejournal can really get you (excuse the 5 million type-os but i'm too lazy to read over it)
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| Key Largo!!!!!!! |
[24 Jul 2005|06:06pm] |
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killjAsper // Taxadermist (can't spell) |
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Well got back a couple hours ago from a night in Key Largo with the whole jAsper Brigade (consisting of ::breath:: the band [duh], Natalie, Sara, Robin, Allie, Ernie, Brandon, Jimmy, Tee's sister and her boyfriend)
Needless to say the show happen to fall on the hottest day of the year and in fuckin JUMBO sized mosquito area. The show was cool and I was really proud of Ryan because he rocked out.(i'll post the picture of that later). After the show and some sort of breakdown...lol. We all headed back to the Inn, which turned out to be halfway decent. It was crazy 4 rooms w/ like 15 ppl or something like that...The night consisted of much much much shit eating.
Defenitly good times.
Coudn't go to the Pompano show...poopi. Hope all went well.
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[23 Jun 2005|10:17pm] |
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Phantom Planet // Lonely Day |
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Livejournal is loosing its "umph."
Caca. life is going pretty damn shitty.
I awoke the other day to a text message informing me that my friend Rayko (in the band SpinLight City)was involved in a severe car accident and is in critical condition. The driver of the car was speeding lost control and crashed into a street light post. There were three people in the car...the driver died. I didn't know the others in the car but I send them and thier families my Blessings.
As random and corny as this is going to be...I feel that it needs to be said. Please if you know anyone that drives fast or anyone that is just reckless on the road please talk to them. Don't let them do anything stupid...there is no reason to impress anyone. Speeding is stupid and pointless. You are putting yourself and others in danger...whether it's for the rush or to impress people...fuck them. They are not worth your life...and i'm sure that if they realized the danger they are in they would realize that it is not worth their lives. Please don't do stupid things...it can end everything.
I am going to visit Rayko with my friends tomorrow...I don't know how it's going to go...we'll see.
-Jessi
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[11 Jun 2005|10:23pm] |
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Watching Lifetime. |
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This weekend has sucked major ass.
Things in fuckin Miami need to get better. This rain everyday, stare at grass grow everyday...is getting old really quick.
I need some excitment in my life. Soon.
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[06 Jun 2005|08:20pm] |
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Carter Beats the Devil // When Ghost Crowd This Room |
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I'm done.
Hate this shit.
Something is defenitly
wrong with me. I just
need to make up my
fucking mind.
I hate rollercoaster days.
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[31 May 2005|03:53pm] |
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my parents piss me off....
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[29 May 2005|09:31pm] |
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Greenday // Time of Your Life |
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This weekend was unexpectedly fun.
Friday::: Headed over early to Tee's house to follow them to the party. Made a shitty attempt at getting free by claiming that Tee and I are talking....she didn't fall for it ( I decided that Sara and I have a lot in common...lol). So w/e I had to pay three bucks to basically stand in a pile of shit...literally. Besides my bitching, it was a good show. Took some nice shots of Monkey's emo strap breaking ;) After watching Carter kick ass as usual we headed back to Tee's house claiming that we were heading over to FIU to take band pics...that didn't happen. So we hung out there and watched the guys flex their shit...or lack there of shit...lol j/k. Had to go home which sucked...because I was having a good time.
Saturday::: Woke up early as hell to go to work...was stuck there 'til like..wow I don't remember the time. Anywho...came home took a shower decided I wanted to make a jAsper shirt...so I did. Apparantly Natalie and I are the only one that get the whole sign.jAsper kill.jAsper thing...but thats ok. lol. as long as i'm not the only one. So did that, and headed over to Kaffe to meet up with everyone. Hung out waiting for the labels to come...which i'm not sure if that ever happened. hmm. Watched Carter again....ate some more caca.
Then headed over with Tee to his house to put the picture program on his computer...did that and waited for everyone to get there. Waited some more for Tee to find what he was going to wear..lol. Then went in Richard's car to the metro to take promo shots. I loooove how they came out so i'm excited. After fear of heights and getting jumped were expirienced we headed back to Tee's. Uploaded the pics and ate more caca...lol. We do that a lot. Once again headed home to an empty house...my parents were out clubbing....go figure.
So yea no school tomorrow...we'll see how that goes.
Weee, Jessi.
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| yup again. |
[18 May 2005|06:50pm] |
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Incubus // Smile Lines |
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Sorry it took me so long ppls...but i've been busy with finals and all
jAsper pics from the not so keg kegger Friday.
[click here boys and girls]
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| Running around weekend. |
[16 May 2005|06:19pm] |
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Taking Back Sunday |
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Hectic weekend but over all a good one.
Finals start tomorrow so i'm stressing.
The link to the jAsper pics will probably be up tomorrow...too much crap to do today.
Lastly, i'm selling pre-sales of $9 to the Super Wheels show June 9th. Line up: killjAsper, All My Heroes, Carter Beats the Devil, and 3 nationally signed bands....AMAZING SHOW.
If you're interested i.m. me at salserita143.
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[08 May 2005|06:41pm] |
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killjAsper // The Assassin |
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I finally made an account on MySpace.
Only made it for jAsper so yea.lol.
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[07 May 2005|11:52am] |
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killjAsper in my head |
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Why I woke up at 8 am...I have no idea.
Going to the show today. Should be good.
So far so good.
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| jAsper |
[02 May 2005|03:37pm] |
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killjAsper pics...killjAsper pics....killjAsper pics... killjAsper pics.
Check 'em out.
I'm proud.
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[28 Apr 2005|07:13pm] |
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Hawthorne Heighs // Niki FM |
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Um...NOTHING EXCITING....
thank u very much...that concludes my post for today.
-Jessi
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[25 Apr 2005|08:29pm] |
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Made a new icon with assistance from Valerie (thank u!)
It's in honor of Carter...mainly because i've had that line stuck in my head since last week. People in my classes think i'm weird because I sit in class quietly and say it to myself...yup im coo coo.
If there was more time in the day I would change my LJ layout but there isnt...and well if there was more time in the day I would probably do other things.
Yup sorry for the random rant but i'm bored.
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[24 Apr 2005|06:19pm] |
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This weekend was gay besided Saturday.
Went to Kaffe to see killjAsper and Carter Beats the Devil...they both kicked major ass. Took pics of jAsper, they came out pretty good.
Hating school can't wait until June 1st.
Next weekend going to see jAsper and Carter again at some church show there, should be good.
I need some excitment soon. I feel like i'm stuck in a annoying cycle.
-Jessi.
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[19 Apr 2005|06:33pm] |
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So ok i'm going to rant a bit about my french teacher.
Well today my french teacher decided to be ghetto....why? is beyond me. It's great to see her adapt to the people she talks to. If she's talking to a "normal" person she talks normal...you know in full sentances and such....but if a "thug" decides to have a chat with her she transform into the French teacher from the hood. I guess it would probably be morea annoying if you had her for a class.
Well reguardless today she decided to criticize the way hispanics say Guadalupe and how French people say it the right way Gudalupe (you have to hear me say to get it) and how people can't countris names...blah blah. So I told her that French people changed America's name to "Amerique" and she got mad at me and shut up.
Then she decided to be "cool" and throw a floppy at some chick from her desk and ended up hitting the a.c. unit and this girls head.....I have never laughed so hard in a class....I was glad she felt crunchy.
Well yea there is a lot more little instinces like that but too much to type...so I leave you with this advice: TAKE ITALIAN NOT FRENCH.
-Jessi
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[10 Apr 2005|05:32pm] |
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Thrice // Deadbolt |
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Sunday....ugh I hate them!!! Luckily i'm done with my homework already but...still hate them.
I got my class ring!!! Wo0o0 finally.
Friday I saw Sin City with Natalie, Elio, Alex, and Erica...good movie, different from most which is what makes it good.
Saturday I ended up not going to the house show...missed The Con playing (bummer cuz I would of loved to see them again...hopefully they will play another show eventually). Missed killjAsper but I know I'll see them again...and missed Coastline Crime...sux but w/e see them eventually too...so yea basically it sux cuz I didnt see The Con....dammit.
Went to Gaby's house and hung out with the band and Justin...good times...lol took some good band pictures at McDonalds.
Tryin to submit a new photo to Deviant but my comp. is being gay.
Thank u for reading all the yabber yabber of what is, my not so exciting life.
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| One Eight Seven |
[04 Apr 2005|01:43pm] |
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Senses Fail // One Eight Seven |
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Unlike other songs posted here before, this song goes out to no one...I just like it and wanted to share it with those bored enough to read it.
One Eight Seven - Senses Fail
It's so nice sitting very still,
in a room where no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window,
let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood and grey
and take the seat right next to me
But I should've known that you were a killer. But now I'm dead.
A gaping hole, shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
Shot from your tongue to end my life.
But if you're blowing at the fire to light your strife.
You'll never know. You'll never know.
The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day.
A gaping hole shot...(shot through my heart)
A lost connection from your poison dart.
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold.
I try so fucking hard, but I can't fit your mold.
The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day.
You ripped my heart out, you tore my eyes out, now you're gonna pay
I'll stab you one time.
I'll eat your heart out so you feel my pain.
Don't you know that I always see you in all of my dreams?
I wanna kill you. I wanna kill you. Now I'm insane.
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